Burning My Cape!!

Grand Rising Tribe!!

What is good with you all? I hope you are RESTING and putting yourself FIRST!! It is NOT selfish to put yourself first to protect your sanity and your peace. It's been normalized in society to put everyone's needs before our own leaving us to suffer silently!! That needs to be UNLEARNED, and it begins NOW!

Just hear me out! You have to the right to tend to yourself in a way you need to be so you can continue to do what you do best which is giving a part of yourself, but of course boundaries are established to PROTECT you! If you don't set boundaries for yourself nor care for yourself in a way you needed to be and this includes tending to your inner child, you will feel drained from people always taking from you. There are wives, mothers, husbands, and even fathers who have lost themselves in the process of putting everyone's needs before their own. Often, they question their identity as to where they went wrong, or why did they make all those sacrifices only to end up miserable feeling like they have wasted so much time. It's a reason why they say stress is a silent killer. Don't let that be you! But if it is you, take the time to find yourself and this is a process that requires you to be honest with yourself. It's no easy feat, because the truth is not always bearable, but it's the only way for us to GROW!

But listen in, I've really been leaning into burning my cape. Yes, I'm a part of the 92% who are resting. But the thing is I did not know how to burn my cape and rest. I was just on the go unable to slow down. I was experiencing migraine attacks left and right. And I had this feeling of "I have to do this and that" as if I had no other choice when I actually did! However, on Monday, Feb. 17th, I had an epiphany! I experienced a deep rest, and of course a slow morning, something that I am not use to at all. As I sat on my sofa and thought about every aspect of my life in addition to the dreams I were having. There were some strong emotions stirring up inside of me that I did not want to let go. I wanted to keep them repressed, because that was what I was taught as a black woman. We are taught to repress our emotions and handle whatever comes our way, because we are SUPER WOMAN!! Well damn, that's one hellava antidote to be passing from one generation to the next! It's a gift, yet a curse if not handled constructively and I mean by taking necessary REST!!

But like I was saying I did not want to release these emotions, I rather would just suffer the consequences which were keep dealing with repeated cysts, depression, etc. You may be wondering, "cysts" a consequence of repressing emotions, how?? Let me tell you something as an Alchemist (another story for another time), we know where health conditions stems from. Sometimes we have a hard time dealing with our own health conditions, because we're so busy rescuing others from their health conditions and mental illnesses. Cysts is the first stage prior to cancer. It is a warning! Cysts stems from unresolved anger, repressed emotions, and they can appear anywhere around the body normally to what it is associated with. So, for example, you have a lump in your breast, luckily it is not cancerous, instead it's a cyst. The breast deals with nurturing and caring for others. When a cyst is formed, it is due to the person over-caring, over-nurturing, overprotective, taking on people's problems, over-extending themselves, taking on their emotions such as their anger. And next thing you know you have unresolved anger of your own and theirs. The cyst may be drained and never come back, but if that behavior continues, it will come back, and you may have cancer. And this is where you really have to change your whole mind set to really heal to beat cancer no matter what treatment you are receiving. Cancer is stemmed from unresolved anger that you refused to let go. Let me make this clear, I am no doctor, and you are to follow the guidance of your doctor. I am sharing with you some of the things that can contribute to cancer even if you're healthy, you don't smoke, nor drink, don't eat meat.

So, to make a long story short, I had my first cyst in 2022 then had my surgery in 2023. It is now 2025 and I recognized my second cyst. I knew where it stemmed from, and I knew what I needed to do. I told myself I can't keep giving and not being reciprocated. And also, I needed to be around my children, because who will take care of my children like I do? No one! I said this is it! I'm burning the cape! And when I did a couple of days ago, it was a true sense of relief and peace that overcame me. There are a lot of things I do not have to do whether people like it or not. I'm only one person and I do have a right to care for myself in a way that I needed to be. Sometimes it takes for someone to attack your precious energy for you to wake up, move differently, and realize who you are as an individual! I know who I am and that is what matters to me most!!

Since burning my cape;

• I don't take anything personal.

• I let shit be what it is.

• If it doesn't involve me, I will not tend to it.

• My self-care is top priority.

• Saying "no" is a form of protection.

• Moving differently to remove myself from constraints.

• REST!

• Being truly at peace to allow myself to be vulnerable.

• Release people to their own problems, because there is always a lesson for everyone to learn so they can value the lesson.

Lastly, I all live classes that were normally posted on TikTok will be on substack included with the paid subscription via zoom links I'll send weekly beginning next week. However, today's lesson will be posted on youtube today and moving forward for other lessons weekly. We will still have our live zoom practice gatherings on Fridays at 7:30pm EST (paid subscribers). There are so many perks to being a paid subscriber; personal interactions with professor via group and individually, free stuff on certain merchandise, games are held on zoom as well, in person meet ups (coming soon), blog posts, etc. See you all Friday at 7:30pm EST! Rememeber, today's lesson will be posted on Youtube! As always sign language is an expressive art through the beautiful movements of our hands.

Until next time, keep signing "art"!

Kamil